Tuesday, 22 Aug 2006

hanging out with southern and local family this past week on vacation.

sticking my toes in the ocean at dusk.

finding out that i had finally secured an additional source of income.

watching/listening to this song .

Tuesday, 22 Aug 2006

wow. I just heard the best re-interpretation of a Car’s song ever. I want to say it’s the best song ever but that would be an overstatement borne from the giddy rush of finding something that makes one smile unexpectedly. I want to say it’s the best song with ukeleles ever, but the somewhere over the rainbow/wonderful world recording is so achingly beautiful it’s hard to put anything over it. I will say it is the best new wave song played on ukeleles I have ever heard, but that doesn’t really do it justice given that it’s competition in that category is probably a bit slim. It might not be your cup of tea, but this is one of the funnest things I have heard in a long time. Much better than the original. That it features ukeleles and the original keyboardist from the Car’s singing and playing a ukelele is icing on a very sweet cake.

My Best Friend’s Girl

ps. yes I know “funnest” isn’t good english, but go listen to some ukelele music and tell me that isn’t more funner than any other music you’ve heard today.

Monday, 21 Aug 2006

w00t! After months of searching I finally found a 2nd job…

…that will on the positive side:

Of course in the great scheme of cosmic balance there are negatives as well. The negatives I can see are that this job will…

So it looks like a wash, right? It’s a fair tradeoff, don’t you think? I am trying to think positively and project good thoughts about this life altering change in my existence. For now, having worked only one day I am feeling a remarkable lessening of tension - of relief at finally being able to tell creditors “Yes, I can get back to paying off my debt”. I think for the foreseeable future it will be worth the weird hours and exhaustion just to not have to tense up everytime the phone rings and to be free from the worry of just how bad my credit is getting, and what would happen if something (car,health) happened where I needed more than the normal amount of money I have in a month were to happen.

Wednesday, 2 Aug 2006

stress is full-on these days nervous unfocused energy not helping to find solutions staying up too late sleepwalking through too similar days but sleep has been good. not good in the ‘i slept good last night’ (grammer intentional) but good in the ‘that’s a nice dream world i’ve been visiting the past few nights’ sort of way. it might be my imagination remembering things wrong as it does so often but i woke once last night thinking ‘wow that’s really nice i got to experience that world - to wake up feeling the way i feel in that imaginary world again. I think the appeal is that’s it’s one of those magical fantasy worlds that don’t exist in real life. Not the kind with unicorns or bizarre physics, or where random things are linked in explicable ways - the kind where i am in love and loved with a life and friends and debt is not rolling after me picking up speed and size as it rolls behind me as I run down a never ending always steeper hill.

Wednesday, 2 Aug 2006

when c2 - away for the summer - seemed sad our 5 hour drive was the only time c2 would see me this weekend.